Everyone expects to have a good life, bright future and bla bla bla... Have you ever expect a bad one when you were young? i mean, young, when you still play with your dolls, when your parents ask you to take a nap in the afternoon. Mostly didn't, rite?
Sadly, i'm one of the minority who has a major ability to expect a complicated family life even on my 6th grade of school. I was passing a smooth life only until that time. Oh, and by the way, my mom gave birth to my little sister on my 4th grade, yeah, 7 years gap of age, pretty far.
Time goes by and i am 24 now. The number is much enough to start think maturely as a mature person. But i need to take a break sometimes, not long, just need a few hours and it happened infrequently.
My mother is in USA, Denver, Colorado, working since 2003. She made it to back home twice so far, not bad.
Me and my sister live with my father and a house-helper, she's been working here since i was 5, impressive isn't it! We love her as our family.
Our parents still married but live separately. Gladly, we have all the standards of living. Still sounds nice, huh?
For years i was dealing with the same problem, it actually my parent's personal problem, but since i am the eldest, no matter how old i was and no matter i'm not ready yet to hear such things they still spill out everything to me as i am their mediator. What about my sister?? She's 17 now, she's more ready than you can ever imagine but "bravely" she keep her mouth, ears and eyes shut as a dorky dork! Always play save, she's the gold and i'm the parasite. Perhaps i'm too rude to my self since i cannot find the precise word to describe it.
Until today, whatever happen to me and my sister, i will always fight my self to keep this as a good relationship between us, even it is hard as going to heaven.
What i'm trying to say is, i have problems that i'm dying to solve it, and it is very hard for me, so so hard even i can't made it as a good story telling, well, it shouldn't. I know my limitation, everyone does, that's why you can't claim your major problem as the toughest, because it depends on everyone's limitation.
I think i'll end it quick, i'm not good at it. Hopefully you get what i'm doing here.
