Me : 'am i a possesive girlfriend?'
Him : 'i dont feel that way'...'but if you'd be like that i will become the same'
Me : 'why?'
Him : 'i told you back then that i was that person and i dont want that person back'
Me : 'i dont mind if you become possesive'
Him : 'please dont. it'll ruin everything, no hard feeling, just learned from the past'
Why can i be in above conversation? God, i'm scare to death if he find out me keep jealous. I have this massive insecurity feeling everytime i think or hear or meet her. I am that fragile since the first time I knew he was into her even just for a while (who knows?). She realized that he chose me, that's the time she starts ignoring me. It might be me who think negative but we are female. Female really has a strong instinc, and surely we know what we have in each other's mind. I dont care if someday she find this then think that i am stupid for wasting my time thinking of something that doesnt exist.
Never, even in my wildest dreams i tend to be possesive. Its all because of you. Yeah, you, Mister!
Dear you Mister F,
If you ask my permission to join Oakwood's outing, then i won't give it. I dont want you to be close to her, even you told me million times that you are with me now and then. I try so hard to keep it in my head, to hold mouth says every bullshits because of jealous. Please dont go there.
Dear you Miss E,
I adore you so much and hate you as hell at the same time. You are such a nice person, i know that. And i know you also try hard to keep that in silent then bury it inside. But feeling cannot lie your expressions.
PS : Once again, all the negative things above are just in my head, except the conversation, it just happened for real about an hour ago.
