Yellow Fawn

Ini sekutipan dari sebuah situs yang ceritanya bisa tau karakter kita dari date of birth aja. Dan dengan mata sedikit melotot saya mengakui 80% dari ini sungguh benar adanya. Hahahaha... Enjoy.

"You are Yellow Fawn, who tend to be idyllic, not pretentious, and seem to give an impression of a tomboy, and someone who hates to lose.
Nevertheless, you are a woman with gentle heart and rather old fashioned ways of thinking.
You enjoy having life with atmosphere, and shows consideration and care for others.
But you can be very fussy about your preferences.
You dislike anything that is dishonest, and have passion and cuteness.
Your weakness is that you can be bit selfish at times.
You are honest hard working person.
Relationships that you feel safe tend to be restricted, and therefore, you are easily influenced by people and situation around you.
You can not easily adapt to changes.
You think high of morality.
You are easily moved by tears, and are honest and sentimental sort of person.
You tend to restrict your self with your cautiousness, and this may result in isolation.
You tend to be difficult to get to know, and will require time to become friend with.
Nevertheless, once your character is understood, you will be able to keep a long and steady friendship.
If you keep doing favors for those people who always ask you, you may lose your good fortune.
So, be careful.
You are not a housewife type of person, but you can be dependent on your husband."

A Process

Forget all the things we wanted
We were never meant to do or die
I'm sorry for the plans you've made
Looking at you makes it harder but don't you cry

I lost the words on my head
Perhaps because it already spread
Really I didn't meant to hurt you
You will always be every girl's muse

Never imagined I could care about you this much
I still even can remember the sense of your touch
You filled my days perfectly
But there's a hole in my heart deeply

My dear lover,
I love you
You know I do
I'll go from here
You'll find someone better than me
Sorry I have to broke this vow
I love you enough to let you go


**This is truly inspired after I listened to Kelly Clarkson's new song "Already Gone". Wow! Ini pertama kalinya gw nulis puisi, or whatever it is lah. Fiuh... Berantakan? I know. Mantap juga Miss Clarkson.

The Past...so called an Unfinished Business

Geez...Kirain dia uda ke laut nyari kerang and happily ever after with Ginny♥♥. Tapi ternyata for this last 2 years when i thought that everything would be not too dramatic as two years ago, day by day starting to improve the story to be more tempting and dramatic than ever. As is the case, life's such a drama. Monoton pasti ya kalo ga gitu... well..helloo...another themes but this please....??? boring... annoying...

Hey girl, thx by the way for calling me young lady, i apreciate. But u are still A girl for me even we're in the same age, hmm...
Here's the point, I admit that i was the third person, and i've no regret at all. Why should I??? That's not 100% my fault. I won't blow out this case as long as they don't stay in touch with me. BUT, since someone who-must-not-be-named here, seperti mengangkatnya kembali ke permukaan yg setelah sekian lama, lets say Lupa, dan ternyata itu sesuatu yg sangat ga enak didenger, dengan terpaksa kebahas lagi.

I've no idea what did he told her about the truth of the case. Tapi aku rasa dia memutarbalikkan fakta. Knock knock, u think that I am the woman who obsessed with my lover (he was mine and hes yours??)?? Are u lost ur mind or what? Ga kebalik ya siapa terobsesi siapa-nya?! Masa mesti ngerekam percakapan antara me and him dari awal kami kenal sih buat barbuk. Mau gimana juga yg kamu pacarin itu Laki2, girl. Hhhh....I've learned a lot and gained a lot juga sejak itu. Ga akan ada manfaatnya urusin hal pinyik dan dgn org2 yg terlalu mengeksklusifkan diri pula. Ini kayanya uda kaya benang kusut yg ga akan bisa lepas dan memang lebih baik dibuang dan coba pake benang yg lain. Ga pernah merasa insist Dia kayanya untuk bisa lepas dari kekasihnya waktu itu. I gave him choices. And once again, dia Laki2.

Gimanapun, ya sudahlah... Saya maklum, pengkhianatan pacar itu pasti really kicked ur ass ya. Apalagi krn kamu itu sebersih dan secantik bidadari, jadi pasti buntek bgt rasanya dikhianatin laki2 yg, skala 1-10, kira-kira 5,5 lah ya. Ga sebanding gitu sm kamu yg nilainya 9,9. U're rite that we're never meet before until now, and u don't think i know u that much, i agree.

Darling girl, masalah itu ga perlu disamperin juga akan dateng sendiri koq...Kamu bilang kan kamu bukan orang suka cari masalah, TOSSS, kita semua sama kalo gitu. Tapi pasti cara menghadapinya yg berbeda2. (U said : "saya bukan org yg suka cari masalah, I AM NOT. Ketika mereka memulai saya tidak merasa 'harus' membalas perbuatan mereka. Sebaliknya mereka seharusnya mengerti apa yg terjadi dalam diri mereka, dan apa yg sedang mereka lakukan terhadap orang lain"). Mungkin memang kamu bukan org yg suka cari masalah dgn orang, tapi sepertinya kamu typical yg akan melakukan segala cara untuk mengatasi masalah itu dan membuat pihak lain terlihat salah lalu membuatmu merasakan SENSASI KEMENANGAN. Sepertinya udah terlanjur tertanam terlalu lama. Memang peranan orang tua sangat berpengaruh ya.. Oops...my bad.

Wake up girl! Jgn terlalu berusaha keras untuk terlihat nice untuk menutupi sesuatu di balik itu, cape sendiri pasti kan? (U said : "Get up, realize...Life must go on. HE'S MINE dan jangan pernah berfikir for the second times, untuk mengambil sesuatu yg pada awalnya sudah menjadi/masih milik orang lain. Jangan pernah. Not once, no. Not. Not ever"). Ho ho hoooo...Easy girl...Don't make any harsh.

FYI: I already done with all of this childish stuff since i realize its not worth it. Harusnya aku..... begini, ARE U DONE Little Girl??? *Lebih pas kan?*

*MARSHA...Is that name ring any bells???